It's been up and down the last couple of weeks.  Some days I feel really pregnant, nauseous, bloated and constipated, hormonal, sore boobs and just generally fat!  Other days I feel fine but then panic because I think I don't feel pregnant enough and worry constantly that something is wrong, then I feel better when I feel worse! I can't win!!!  I've also been suffering with headaches quite badly, I've had one almost constantly for about a month now, I've read this can be caused by high blood pressure so I'm going to see my doctor this week to get it checked out.  I also thought the tiredness would have passed by now but I can still drop asleep at any given quiet moment, and quite often do!

I'm sure I've felt the baby moving already.  Its supposed to be a bit early for that still but I am a nurse so I think I'm able to tell quite well, plus I'm normally skinny so there's not much to cushion it!  It's happened about three times now, the first time I was certain and got so excited, my partner and I were ringing round our families to tell them all at 9 o'clock at night!!  He tries to feel it but he can't yet and gets very disappointed!  It's happened twice while I've been watching Eastenders, this makes me think it must be a girl and after my own heart! It's probably because I get riveted and am quite still when I watch it so I'm more likely to feel something.

I'm eagerly awaiting my 20 week scan, only three weeks to go but my appointment hasn't come through yet, I'll probably end up harassing them, phoning everyday until it comes, I'm that excited.  We're still trying to decide whether to find out the sex, we were adamant at first that we wouldn't but over time we keep changing our minds.  Everyone we speak to has a different opinion so no matter what we do someone will think we should have done different.  It's becoming a really hard decision to make.  We want a surprise on the day and I like the idea of my partner telling me if it's a boy or girl straight after he/she's born, but at the same time it would be easier to pick a name (something we are really struggling with) and make plans and be organised, plus I'm one of those people who can never wait til christmas if I know where the presents are hidden, I'll always sneek a peek!!

That's all for now, til next time. x